So past two weeks I been mostly indoors as I spent a lot of money on an iPad so didn’t have any money to go out anywhere. Today i was about to get in the car and someone im not sure I recognise walked past the driveway and nodded to acknowledge me as if he knew me. I have a vague idea of who it could be but it’s just guesswork as it happened so fast.
This has been bothering me all day, making me feel threatened and paranoid, combined with disturbed sleep recently, and a couple of unsuccessful social interactions while shopping.
I get these paranoid cycles about once a month now. Whenever I leave the house I can’t wait to return home. I know I’m meant to try to pull apart the paranoid thoughts and look at them logically to see that they are unlikely to be real or hurt me etc. This is easier said than done. When I return to the social world I feel like I’ve been away for such a long time.
On a side note ive been waiting for a new fragrance to arrive in the post today. I bought it without smelling it, it’s based on reviews. I get a bit superstitious about clothes and fragrances. (I’ve been researching a lot about fragrances recently). If I wear new clothes/fragrances or different ones from my usual rotation and I have a good day than I feel ‘blessed’ by what I’m wearing. And if I have bad experiences I feel ‘cursed’ by what I’m wearing. I wonder if other people do this.
Cogs Of My Cranium 